The deepest blues are black

Okay. Yes, I felt extremely hurt when you wouldn’t allow me to post on my Facebook status that we were together for a massage. That was the only time in all the years of our relationship that I felt you actually couldn’t be known to have spent time with me. Of course I immediately had guesses as to why someone would get mad at you for being with me. I think that like my own friends, your friends advised you not to spend so much time with me. Yes, we rarely missed a weekend of not seeing each other. If I’m right, I’m pretty sure your friends warned you only for your own good. That I’d truly understand but your hesitance at that moment that I was going to tag your name on Facebook, that hurt, alot. It made me feel like I was the bad person inviting you to be with me.

Yup, I cried in the bathroom for a little bit. And then I started going back through that day and I did remember an instance where you were being distant. And that’s understandable too ‘cause we are one year broken off already. Ahh.. but this hurt me. It did.