Being honest
You’re leaving soon. I’m not sure how I’m going to do this now on my own. I think it’s obvious that we’ve both tried to get on without each other, especially these past few weeks. I guess it would be harder for you, leaving your family and then starting anew on your own. I’m not sure but I might move to Singapore next year too. Who knows.
I really hope the next few months won’t be too terrible for you.
Did you notice something has changed between us? If we were still together, this thing would have shattered us. But because there’s no longer an ‘us’, it doesn’t seem to bother us as much. Or at least we’re not letting one another know.
Did you also notice that we don’t tell or ask each other details of what we’ve been doing, who we’re meeting or where we’re going? Nothing, I just wanted to point it out. I am curious who you’ve been having lunch with or who that ‘new friend’ is that you mentioned. I could easily ask you ‘cause friends do that, especially best friends, but something’s happened recently. For me I know it started after we had the massage but also I think I want to give you space. To give you time to spend with your family and friends before you finally leave.
I keep making deep sighs. I know you know what that means. I’ve noticed too that you’ve been scratching your throat for a while now. I know you’ve become stressed. I know things couldn’t be harder for you now.
I hope you’ll be strong.
I realized last night that if one of us already had a significant other, I’m not sure we can hold on to each other as best friends any longer. I don’t know that it would make sense being that as much as we say we’re just best friends, there’s always some kind of affection, some kind of special treatment. Maybe we don’t look at each other that way anymore, but for me I still care. Another deep sigh.
I hope I’ll be strong too.
