This is real
“It’s always darkest before the dawn” the song says. Listening now to the radio from my cellphone. Goodness, these words are my only life line now. I get struck with a wave of loneliness and there’s not much I can do except let it out here. I have to or else I’ll just feel worse.
Good thing that last night I was finally able to talk with my guy friend. It made me smile and laugh (more than I’ve done in a while.) Anyway, it was good. And he texted this morning with a good morning and to embrace this new day. That was nice to read. I wish I’d felt better today. It’s going to be a long one, I’m flying to Singapore at 9pm and arriving at 1am.
There’s a part of me that doesn’t know if I can feel any more lonely than I already am, but I’m sure I could. As my friend said, it’ll pass, it just takes time. Wow, I have a lot of time.
I’m just… lonely, you know?
